somehow i just don't know how to respond to people. bukan tak suka, bukan sombong. kalau memang betul tak suke someone tu pun, i really have to suka them. hablumminannas.
to get people to look me in the eyes while talking is a distressing social activity, sometimes.
good thing that my best friend of two years while i was in kmb is so the very talkative, we complement each other. she talks, and i listen. and it feels so right.
i don't know how to respond to other people's joke. I JUST DON'T KNOW
it becomes awkward for me. really.
it's in the gene i think. mama pun selalu cerita yang dia tak suka cakap sangat dulu.
anyways. i do try really hard to engage myself in a fruitful conversation when i am around normal people.
saya tengah berusaha. *pat myself in the back.
teringat kisah Nabi Musa yang ditugaskan Tuhan menyeru manusia paling zalim pada zamannya;
dengan keadaanya yang tak fasih berbicara.
Allah tak tengok hasil.
Allah tengok usaha.